Motivation

I thought I was motivated already, but today I completely renewed that feeling, and increased it's influence over me. I don't know what brought it about, maybe I have to much time to myself to think things over. Then again, maybe that is a good thing if it brings about this kind of result. The only draw back to it is that I want to accomplish every one of my goals like right now! I need to regain that incredible patience that I've always had, good things come to those who wait. I just hope I don't get discouraged from results coming slower than I would like. I know these things take time, I just have to channel this energy into a positive way and keep on going at full strength. No more complete disasters like I had Sunday, then again, with another leg day approaching who knows what will happen.

Ravenous

Wow, yesterday I had the most ravenous hunger that I can ever remember. Adding weights to my routine has really increased my appetite, I don't think I'll be able to finish the month off at my current average calorie intake. Today I had to give in and sate my monstrous appetite, but it is back to the routine tomorrow. Squats, what can I say, they are the bane of my existence. I can't imagine a worse feeling than the days following a first time doing squats in a very long time. But seriously, just have to get that first time out of the way, and then it is golden from there, they are probably the best strength gaining exercise you can do. I'm exhausted, the weekend wasn't very restful for me, off to bed.

Insomnia

My insomnia seems to be kicking in high gear tonight, work will sure be fun tomorrow. Anyways, I had my first set back in my challenge, but it was something I just couldn't resist, I'm glad I alloted a few extra days in case something like that happened. More research has lead me to rethink my strategy for the next few months, Tabata method is sure looking like a feasible alternative. The Velocity diet is also looking rather unattractive, but I read about a small tweak to it that might make it more reasonable. I still have plenty of time to implement all the necessary changes to it that I need to make, so I'm hoping I'll have the perfect plan when the time comes. Working full-time is going to take some more getting used to. I thought I liked it at first, but now with all the new things I want to do it is becoming a thorn in my side. Life is all about facing your challenges and finding ways to overcome them, so that is the way I'll approach it. Things are looking up for a nice change, hoping they stay that way.

Dreary

So the little experiment is going well so far, aside from my planned weekend cheat time, it has gone without a hitch. There has been some changes in my body, most notably the seven pounds I lost in the first five days. Haven't had a chance for another weigh in yet, probably get to that tomorrow or soon. There have been some negative changes in my body, but I don't know if I can chalk them up to this diet, will have to wait and see. Probably the most unnerving is my high blood pressure, I don't know how that could have came about. I'll go back to the doctor to get it checked again in a couple of weeks, so hopefully it will be back to normal then. The last thing I want to do is get stuck taking blood pressure meds the rest of my life. Other depressing news keeps getting thrown my way lately. It just seems like all this bad stuff gets heaped on me all at once whenever it comes. It just makes me want to be more of a hermit than I already am, which will only compound the problem more, so it is a no-win situation. I thought my weekend getaway would cast aside all my worries, but I just ended up realizing again that people are only out for themselves. At least it didn't happen directly to me this time, but it still stings even though it happened to a good friend of mine. Just goes to show that there are certain people you should not associate yourself with, no matter how good you think they might be, or how willing to change they say they are. Now it is just time to focus on my own personal problems. I hate that the way that I am makes other people sad or upset. It's not like I do it on purpose, I've just always been this way so it shouldn't really come as a surprise. I say I want to change myself, but I always revert back to my old ways, in this aspect at least. I'll just have to wait and see if I can rectify the situation.

Experiment

So I'm going to experiment a little and try being a vegetarian for a month starting today. I'm doing this to test my self-discipline as well as to see if I notice any positive effects in my body. I might have to have a couple cheat days where I'll probably just splurge on some chicken maybe, especially with 4th of July coming up. But all in all I think that I will be able to complete my goal for the most part. Hopefully I'll notice some change in my physical appearance as well as my over all health. I've talked to a couple of friends about it who are vegetarians/vegans and they say they feel much better after having made the switch. The one thing I have noticed so far is that I have to eat a lot more and am hungry all the time, but I guess that isn't really a change for me anyway! But seriously, I hope I have the discipline and self-control to be able to complete this. It will be an accomplishment I can feel good about knowing that I have the power to control what I want and not be overcome by cravings.

Sugar Free

So I've essentially cut sugar out everything I drink, save a couple gatorades here and there. Its been one month now, can't say that I really notice anything different, but I'm terrible at noticing gradual changes in my body. I plan to keep it up, I don't really have the cravings any more, so that sure makes it easier. More dietary changes to follow, plan to start on Sunday.

Inspire

Have you ever met someone that in a short while had a profound impact on your life? I guess I'll dedicate this post that person, since they were sort of my inspiration to start this blog. Maybe profound is too strong a word, but I've been impacted nonetheless. It is nice to meet someone with a fresh outlook on life, one that makes you rethink your own lot in life. Not that I'm completely changed or anything, but I do view some things differently. Its nice to have a fresh perspective on some things. Also a good music recommendation has urged me to go back and revisit some of my old cd's, I had forgotten how good they were. So here's to you, my next drink I'll have to say a silent toast in your honor. I would have liked to get to know you better, but things don't always work out the way you want unfortunately.

Alcohol

Hmm, considering whether or not to quit drinking. I love relaxing with a beer, and drinking to excess is always fun, until the next day of course. Just have to think about if I feel it is worth it anymore. Maybe I'll just quit for a little while.

Ms. California

So the whole gay marriage issue going on in California has been plaguing my news feed for a few weeks now. Is it just me or does anyone else not care what Ms. California thinks? I mean seriously, leaver her alone, why does what she thinks matter to anyone? They point out that she has the same stance as the president but no one says a thing about him and the issue. People just need an enemy or they feel like they aren't being heard and no one cares. I personally don't care if gays get married or not, it literally has no effect on my life at all. If two people want to be together and care for each other they should be allowed to and have the same benefits as every one else. I just don't care for the way they go about getting their rights by attacking and destroying other people's reputations for their own gain. If you want people to understand your side you need to do it by showing how good of a person you are and how it would make your life better. Attacking people sure won't get them to change their views. I also believe in democracy, that it should be left up to the people to decide. When you look back through history there is no one clear definition of marriage, it has always been whatever a society defines it as. Sure it sucks for you that most people don't agree with gays getting married, but you really got to tone down things like what happened in California. They finally got their wish and she was fired, just to be replaced by someone with the exact same beliefs, some progress there. As for the other side, I used to be with you, but I came to the conclusion that we only have so long on this world, so why not live the way you want, with out someone else having to validate your way of life. Does gays getting married some how invalidate your marriage? Keep your traditions in your religion, I would never impose this on a religion, would be kind of pointless seeing as how people can believe what they want when it comes to faith. But when it comes to governmental recognition I see no problem with gays getting hitched. Well, just had to throw my two cents out there, rant over. Just tired of seeing these stupid head lines every day. There is so much more important things going on in the world!

Iran

I guess my first post will be about what has been dominating the news lately: elections in Iran. I myself am surprised that other people really expected Mousavi to win, the whole thing was a sham to begin with. What do you expect when you have an unelected supreme leader? It will be interesting to see what unfolds from all of this. I'm too lazy to research this topic at the moment, seeing as how late it is, but I'll maybe get around to it tomorrow to satiate my inquisitive nature. I think it is funny that a lot of people equated the reform candidate to be Iran's "Obama." From what I've heard he was the one who started their nuclear program in the first place. Just another thing to look up when I get the chance. Another current event bouncing around in my head is the all the gobbledygook going on in California with all the pageant bs, more to come on that later.