Dreary

So the little experiment is going well so far, aside from my planned weekend cheat time, it has gone without a hitch. There has been some changes in my body, most notably the seven pounds I lost in the first five days. Haven't had a chance for another weigh in yet, probably get to that tomorrow or soon. There have been some negative changes in my body, but I don't know if I can chalk them up to this diet, will have to wait and see. Probably the most unnerving is my high blood pressure, I don't know how that could have came about. I'll go back to the doctor to get it checked again in a couple of weeks, so hopefully it will be back to normal then. The last thing I want to do is get stuck taking blood pressure meds the rest of my life. Other depressing news keeps getting thrown my way lately. It just seems like all this bad stuff gets heaped on me all at once whenever it comes. It just makes me want to be more of a hermit than I already am, which will only compound the problem more, so it is a no-win situation. I thought my weekend getaway would cast aside all my worries, but I just ended up realizing again that people are only out for themselves. At least it didn't happen directly to me this time, but it still stings even though it happened to a good friend of mine. Just goes to show that there are certain people you should not associate yourself with, no matter how good you think they might be, or how willing to change they say they are. Now it is just time to focus on my own personal problems. I hate that the way that I am makes other people sad or upset. It's not like I do it on purpose, I've just always been this way so it shouldn't really come as a surprise. I say I want to change myself, but I always revert back to my old ways, in this aspect at least. I'll just have to wait and see if I can rectify the situation.